So I’m considering a very, very bold move.
I can honestly say that I’ve struggled with my weight my whole life. The strangest part of this struggle is that when I look back at old photos of myself I tend to think I used to look pretty good. And then I think about how I felt about myself and how I would mentally degrade myself, when in reality, I should have been enjoying the way I was.
If you’re anything like me, it’s taken my entire lifetime to try and understand what I need to achieve to look my personal best. A number on a scale is just a number. It’s not written across your forehead for everyone to see. One person’s 170 is absolutely not another person’s 170. In fact, when I was in high school as a four sport athlete playing varsity basketball, 170 is what I weighed. I was as fit as I’ve ever been in my life and I was very strong. Still, 170 is a lot of pounds for a 17-year-old girl. Yet, looking back at the photos from my senior year…I didn’t look half bad. I may have even looked good! I wish I would have known that the number on the scale really didn’t matter. It hurts to think back on those days and realize I was so unhappy with myself for no good reason.
Fast forward roughly 9 years. Nine years that have included a non four sport athlete lifestyle, a slowed metabolism, a drink or two in college, and a baby…rough on the body for sure. Those nine years have also delivered me a diploma, a husband, and the most precious thing in my life, my son. These have been nine great years. But I want my next nine to be even better.
It’s time to lose the weight. Excuses don’t make me feel better, in fact, they make me feel worse. The hardest realization that anyone who wants…no…needs to lose weight, is that nobody can do it for you, nobody can want it for you, and nobody will feel as good as you do once you attain it. I gained this weight by myself…be it over the course of several years and several reasons, but I have to lose it by myself for myself. I have to do this for me. This is a gift to myself.
So here’s the bold move I’m considering. I have this little blog here in this small corner of the webosphere. Nothing significant, nothing of great magnitude. But what I think I do have is a humble following here of people who care about me, and people who can motivate me. So I’m asking a favor. Keep tabs. Check in. Don’t let me slack. I’m hoping that if I can journal this journey on here, that maybe I might even inspire others to join me in this effort. And not for me, for you.
Before I dive into this and bare my soul (my weight) and my struggles, I’m wondering if you, esteemed readers, feel that this is something that I should do, and something that would possibly benefit you. And also, if there’s anyone else that would like to join me in this effort and be on this blog with me losing weight together. It’s my own Biggest Loser…so anyone care to join? Email me or leave a comment.
It’s time to get this party started.